Monday, December 21, 2009

Alexis at 4 Months

Here I am feeding Lex while trying to get her update out. I haven't been so good about blogging...considering my last post was about her 3 month progress. Seems these updates are the only thing getting me on here! I know I need the information logged for whenever I get to her poor, neglected baby book! I have never waited so long to start. Then again I have never had such a difficult baby. Or 4 kids. It helps to know that I at least have these entries to fall back on.

On that note...there really isn't much different with her since last month.

*She still doesn't nap well. Seems to be only when we have to go somewhere and I'm in agony that I have to wake her because she is actually asleep, or if I have help from Craig or my mom. Oh yes, then she sleeps!

*Still waking up every morning at 4:30. Ugh! Want. To. Sleep. All. Night!!!!!!!!!!

*Something very new is showing signs of stranger anxiety. So early too! Last night we had a Christmas party and she had not slept all day. When one person looked at her she stuck her lip out. When the next person she didn't recognize looked at her she bawled. Oh boy! Earlier last week she had started playing "bashful". My mom would say "hi" to her and she would push her face into my neck. Then look back for more. So cute! Our boys were never afraid of strangers so we will see how this develops!

*We just started size 2 diapers. Much better as those 1's were getting snug! She is in o-3 and 3-6 month clothing. Still LOVING dressing her! And still in size 1 shoes! Tiny feet!

*She's getting more vocal. She likes to talk and smile at her family. She will actually yell when she doesn't see anyone and wants to make sure someone is near. It's very cute.

*She does stomach crunches to try and sit up. Hard to get her to relax!

Right now she is on my lap and Zachary is singing songs to her and sweet talking her. Her favorite stuff! She is smiling, cooing and giving him little laughs. Just a few more days and we will be celebrating our first Christmas with her! Such a Joy.=0)

Monday, November 30, 2009

Alexis is 3 Months!

I have been trying to get this post out for almost 2 weeks now! Nov. 18th she turned 3 months...amazing. So here are a few tid bits about Lexy at 3 months.

*She still wakes up for a feeding every night between 3:30 and 4:30. That's after her last feeding of the night around 10:30-11. Wonder when she will finally sleep through the night?!

*She has had a stuffy nose for about 3 weeks now and is very snorty.

*She is cooing and "talking" a lot now! So cute!! She will talk with you for awhile when she really gets going. I don't remember the boys cooing so much at this age!

*Still loves, loves, loves fans and mobiles!

*She found a first toy to love up...her soft doll we named Lucy. She likes to play with her piggies and suck on her! So cute when she smiles at her!

*She just started pooping more regularly....yay!!!! Never thought poop would make me so happy!

*She still will not nap well. Best bet is in the car.

*Wears 0-3 month clothes. 3-6 month is huge on her. Still in size 1 diapers. Size 1 shoes. (Finding out how cute shoes are on girls! Fun!)

*She lost her Great-Grandpa Pape this month. Part of why it took me so long to write this post. One of my biggest regrets is that she didn't get to meet him.=0(

*Our little girl is growing! At 3 months she weighs about 12 1/2 pounds! She loves her milk and nurses 7 times a day.

*We realized we have to closely watch her cues. If she yawns, we need to prepare to get her to sleep. If she yawns twice, we really need to move. If she gets to the third yawn before we have started the sleep process, not pretty! She goes from calm and smiley to screaming in no time flat! People don't believe it until they see it!

*She has worn a bald spot on the back of her head. Poor girl!

We are excited to share the Holidays with our little girl this year! The boys are excited to show her all of our family traditions including the Advent tree which starts tomorrow! And I am looking forward to dressing her up in all of her adorable Holiday outfits...oh the joys of having a little girl!=0)

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Disney Old School

Yesterday we made a trip to Disneyland. We decided to start at DCA first because we hadn't been there since Alexis' birth and had been blocked out the whole summer before that. It was SO NICE to finally have a day there where the place wasn't bursting at the seams with people. Back in the day pass holders were rewarded with many of those days. Many months actually. You could always count on September through November until the Christmas decorations went up, to be prime Disney time! And then again in January until Spring break. Then they introduced the 2fer during that time. Gone was the bliss to be replaced with chaos. And then the Halloween Time, they even added a "special" fireworks show and a spooky image in Space Mountain this year and everyone went crazy. That place was insane!! Fun to have the decorations but I miss my quieter Disney days. I felt like that was part of the benefit of having a pass, you could avoid those super crowded days. So I was very pleased when we were able to nearly walk on some rides yesterday.

To add to the fun, Jacob has recently reached a new height so that he is now able to go on a bunch of new rides. He has waited in such great anticipation as his brothers would go on them and he would have to go on something else. Oh happy day when, with the help of tennis shoes, he reached 40 inches!! So yesterday we went on Soarin Over California with him for the first time. I was so excited!! That ride is truly amazing and unique and I couldn't wait to share that experience with him! He loved it and we are excited he doesn't have to sit out anymore! We walked on Monster's Inc, watched an animation show for the first time and went to "Turtle Talk With Crush".

We then headed over to "the real Disneyland" as Zachary put it. After eating dinner we realized it had gotten busier due to DCA closing and dumping into it. Star Tours didn't have much of a wait and is another ride that Jacob is now tall enough for. And how wonderful that is with the boys ever growing love and affection for all things Star Wars. While the boys were on that I was able to get Fast Passes for Space Mountain. Very exciting as this would be our ticket to getting Jacob on the ride for the very first time! After Child switching on Matterhorn we headed over to Space. I was concerned that Jacob would come off in tears. I should have known better. As Craig said, "He giggled the whole time and said, "This is awesome!" He was ready to march right back on with me!=0)

Less people and two new rides for Jacob made for a very enjoyable evening at the happiest place on earth!;0)

(And I typed most of this with my left hand as I fed Lex! Can we say multi-tasking, super talent??;0)

"A" is for Alexis!

Alexis' first time on Monster's Ic.

The boys with one of their favorites!

Alexis' first picture with a princess!! I was pretty much beaming!!!=0)

Monday, October 19, 2009

Alexis is 2 Months Old!

Last Night Alexis turned 2 months old! What a crazy 2 months it has been! I want to record what she is doing, and what life is like so that whenever I get to her scrapbook, I'll have something to refer to!

*Since last month, we have seen some leaps in the right direction. One big leap is car rides. While she used to scream every time we drove, and usually the whole time be it a 5 minute trip or an hour one, she now usually falls asleep!! Hurray! That is a huge improvement as we would all get stressed out every time we had to drive somewhere. Not fun listening to a screaming newborn and not be able to do anything about it!

*Although she usually falls asleep in the car, she still will not let us put her down to sleep when out of the car. As soon as we try to lay her down, she wakes right up. Example. She had been up most of the day today. Sleeping maybe 20 minutes at a time. After dinner Craig got her to sleep once again, tried to lay her down and said "let's see if we make twenty minutes." Eight minutes later.... So I am trying very hard now to get her to fall asleep on her own in her bed. This requires a bit of crying, and one of us standing near by to keep popping the paci back in. Hard to hear her cry but necessary for all of us.

*She still needs to be swaddled to fall asleep.

*On the 15th we used her last newborn diaper and started her on size 1's.

*She had a HUGE growth spurt this past week or so and all of a sudden fit in a bunch of her 0-3 clothes! Still quite a lot she doesn't fit in but it was fun to find some new things to put on her!

*On that note I noticed today that all of the tiny Gerber onsies she wore the first month or two now look super tiny next to her. Sad to put away her first clothes. Crazy to see how much she has grown!

*Tomorrow she will go in for her wellness visit and get her first round of shots.=0( This does not make mommy happy. I hate shots. =0(

*She is smiling a lot more and just started making some new cooing sounds. Adorable!!

*She is crazy strong and whips her head all around. She now can hold her head up for quite a long time!

*Her right eye still has a leaky tear duct that seems to have gotten worse instead of better. I spend a good part of the day wiping yellow goop from it.

*She doesn't have a bowel movement but once every 8 days or so. A few weeks ago she required "a little help". Poor thing!

*She is still incredibly gassy. Stinky!!

*She has been on medication for reflux now for almost 2 weeks. It seems to be helping as she is not spitting up quite as much. We will talk to her Dr. more about this tomorrow as we have only seen the Dr. out here. (And our Dr. back in Whittier is the best there is! Looking forward to talking with her!)

*She's been to Sea World twice this month, once for the first time! And she did really well!

*Her 2 month photo shoot was awful again. Got a few good ones before she fell apart and was once again inconsolable!

*She still wakes up a few times a night and eats once around 4am now. Still looking forward to a solid nights sleep!

*Along with the growth spurt came new roundness to her cheeks and she now has ROLLS on her little thighs!! Our boys were all skinny legged and I wondered if she would get the typical girl thighs! I didn't have to wait long for that answer as she is only 2 months and already getting them!! So cute!

*She is more aware of her surroundings. Something off in the distance will catch her attention and she will just stare and stare. She likes looking at fans and mobiles. She loves the one on her swing and that it has a mirror to look up into. Keeps her happy for a few minutes at a time!;0)

*Does much better with her baths. Usually gets one every morning and can get through most without any tears!

Tonight our little one fell asleep in her bed. It took a lot of patience and time, but we did it! Seeing bits of improvement here and there is very helpful to keep going! I am struck all of the time with the fact that I have a baby girl! I love her so much and am so thankful for her. No matter how much she has cried these past 2 months she still has a family that adores her. You would think the boys would have tired of that by now, but their love for her is unconditional. Truly amazing to see. We are complete with her here.

Strong neck!

Thursday, October 01, 2009

"It Will Get Better..."

I haven't been able to get on here and blog. Actually, I haven't been able to do anything. I am barely able to keep up with the three other kids, laundry, dishes and general picking up of the house. Alexis takes up most of my day...and to prove a point, I started this blog ohhhh about 6 hours ago but Alexis woke right up and screamed. So now she is in my lap after a feeding, it's almost 9:00 and I am hoping she will sleep a bit until her 10:30 feeding. I admit, I have been having a hard time. I love children, especially babies and especially newborns. This newborn is giving me a run for my money. I am often at a loss on what to do. I always had a certain pride or satisfaction at getting babies to stop crying. To help calm them. This adds to how hard it's been caring for Lexy. She needs to be held all day. She has periods in the day where even when I am holding her, she just screams. And today I was at the point where I was just too tired, to physically and mentally exhausted to get up, walk around and do the bouncing she needed. I sat in the recliner with her instead and just cried. That was a new low. I'm sad because everyone keeps saying, "It will get better". I know it will, what makes me sad is that she will be bigger when it is better. And I don't want to wish this amazing newborn stage away. I want to enjoy it, savor it, like I have done in the past with the boys. I'm also torn wondering if something is wrong with her. Does she have reflux, colic something that can be helped with medication? Is she in pain? I tried calling her pediatrician, left a message but never heard back. Knowing how wonderful she is I am assuming she never got the message.

I am so thankful for those that have encouraged me. Facebook has been a wonderful place for that. I am thankful for those reminding me this to shall pass, I just wish it could pass more peacefully. This is my last baby. I have looked forward to her arrival for what seems like forever and I reeallllly want to enjoy her. I would like to not feel so emotionally drained by the end of the day and not feel like my boys are getting the short end of the stick. And even more simple, I would just like to be able to finish my pregnancy something other then taking care of children or cleaning.

It will get better.....

This is a picture of her last week when I talked about having her fall asleep on the bed while doing laundry!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Alexis is 5 weeks tonight!

It is a rare moment that Alexis is sleeping...and not in my arms! She wouldn't stay asleep in her bed so I had to swaddle her, lay her next to me on our bed and she fell asleep with me next to her while I folded laundry. I'm sure I don't have much time but wanted to get a few things down about Alexis at one month old!

Alexis is a high need baby. My most high need yet. I keep saying that she must not have gotten the memo that a 4th child must be easy, and know that they are a 4th. She wants to be held ALL of the time and let's you know it.

Alexis needs to be swaddled a good part of the day. Her arms get her all worked up and the only way to calm them, is to be swaddled.

Alexis has become much more alert. She will have more periods during the day where she can be calm and look at the world around her.

Alexis is still in Newborn clothes and diapers. She's a tiny little thing! I keep searching through her outfits to find things that will fit! Thankfully a few 0-3 month things shrunk enough to fit her!

Alexis sleeps well during the first part of the night. Eats around 10-10:30 and wakes up again around 2-3:30. After that, she is usually restless and ends up sleeping in daddy's arms. We are really hoping to pack some weight on her so she can make it longer stretches at night. We were very spoiled by our first 3 that were mostly sleeping through every night within the first few weeks!

Alexis loves to be cuddled and warm hence the constant holding! Diaper changes need to be quick, and don't leave her naked! She loves to hang out in the Bjorn as well.

Alexis did not like baths very well until her last one which was given in the afternoon. She gets fussier as the day goes on and we had been giving her baths at night. She had cried through all of those but did much better with the earlier bath time. Hopefully that will stick!

Alexis likes to bounce on the birthing ball. I find this really funny. I bounced on that ball for hours everyday the last month or so of pregnancy. She must find comfort from that familiar motion felt in utero!

Alexis is very gassy, poor girl! And boy does it smell!! And she only has a bowel movement every few days which is completely different then her brothers who went about 10 times a day!

Alexis has 3 brothers who absolutely adore her! They constantly ask to hold her, kiss her and just love on her! Jacob sings her Twinkle Little Star whenever she is upset. They help put her paci back in, throw away diapers, anything they can to be involved!

I can't believe that she will be 5 weeks old tonight! I love her silky soft skin. Her cute little lips and soft head! I still am in shock that I have a daughter! She is an amazing baby girl!

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Birth Story

I have been wanting to sit down and write this everyday since Alexis has been born and hopefully I can get through it in one sitting!

I'll go back to Sunday, August 16th. I had not felt the baby move much all day. I could not get the kick counts required to help assure things were OK. I wrestled all day with going in to the hospital to have things checked out. It's so far away, what would we do with the kids...but I did call about mid day. The Dr. on call of course said to come in. But I still waited hoping she would become more active. After much debating we finally went to the hospital after the kids were in bed. Our wonderful neighbors came to stay with them which was so helpful! At the hospital I was monitored and of course once I was hooked up Alexis went crazy. Accept this time it worried me because her heart rate went into the 190's, and even hit the 200's. And it stayed that way consistently for over an hour. A babies heart rate in utero is normally about 145. They waited until her heart rate had calmed down and then told us that there were no ultrasound techs there at the time and that we needed to come back the following day for a fluid check. I was really worried but relieved we would at least be checking things out.

Monday we got to the hospital and went up to the screening center. The nurse running it took care of us. She was really awesome and a blessing to me during such a stressful time. She did the fluid check first and confirmed that she could barely squeak a 6 out of the fluid and was concerned. I was fighting tears because I had just known it was lowering. She then did the stress test and began the hunt to contact Dr. Gray who was not on call but she said she had connections. We ended up needing to consult with the Dr. who was at the hospital, Dr. Buchanan. He said to send me up to labor and delivery for monitoring. The nurse looked at me and said very pointedly, "If you are worried enough about your baby, you need to tell them that and that you don't want to leave." She was very sweet and supportive and walked us up to Labor and Delivery. We thought this would be it so called my parents who prepared to come down. We also had Zachary and Jacob with us and Tyler was still in school.

Once hooked up we were there for hours before the Dr. came in. He said he thought the baby looked fine now and that there was no reason to induce labor. I was crushed. I knew the fluid would just keep dropping and wanted to get her out before it became emergency situation. He gave me a few options, none of which were very feasible, so I asked if we could at least have the fluid monitored everyday. A huge inconvenience with the drive but the only way to have any peace that the baby was safe. So we agreed to that all when my parents were pulling into the hospital parking lot....ugh. I was SO frustrated! So we decided they would stay the night and see what the fluid check in the morning revealed. Thank God they did!

Tuesday we went to the Dr.'s office for the fluid check and stress test. During the stress test Alexis was hardly moving. Dr. Buchanan was consulted about that and he ordered to stay on the monitor longer. Finally we stopped so I could get the fluid checked. Thanks to God again, the tech who isn't very attentive or people friendly was on vacation and we got the awesome one! She was super caring and really took her time. She was having a hard time getting 6 and was concerned at the rate it had dropped from the previous weeks. She wanted to show a Dr. and specifically set out to find a Dr. she knew would be more apt to act on this. And again thank God that she found Dr. Henderson instead of Buchanan. He came in about two minutes later, looked at us, shook our hands, smiled and then said the words that stopped us both in our tracks, "It's time to have a baby!" I thought I was hearing things. He said what I had been saying over and over that there was no reason NOT to get the baby out, it was a no brainer. He said "the fluids low, your full term, let's have a baby!" Wow! So we thanked them both and left to go across the street to the hospital. It was about noon.

Even though the Dr. had been so cut and dry we still were apprehensive. We knew Dr. Gray was the Dr. on call which was just too perfect. But from the past days events we were taking the we'll believe it when we hear it approach! When we walked in I was surprised to see a friend there who is a nurse. She normally works at Whittier Pres. and was the nurse who briefly took care of me when I was first admitted with Jacob! It was like dejevu! We talked for a minute and then I got set up in yet another room. They unfortunately were having an insanely busy day so when the nurse said she would be right back, it was actually nearly an hour and a half. This whole time we were unsure if I was actually staying or not so I was a nervous wreck not knowing if this was really happening. When the nurse finally returned she started talking about different things. We just looked at her and were finally able to ask, "But are we staying then?" To which she replied, "Oh yeah, your admitted!", like we had just known! Whew!

As soon as she said that, my stomach turned to knots. I had been trying to eat before they starved me but I instantly lost my appetite! I could not believe we were actually going to have the baby after sooooooo long! I was so scared of an induction because it had gone so wrong with Tyler, even though I knew she needed to come out. She explained their plan of action. At 3:30 they inserted Cervidil just to see how that would help. It's not supposed to necessarily start contractions but can just get the body even more ready. Apparently my body was very ready because I had a contraction 5 minutes later! I was supposed to lay flat for an hour to let the gel really work and then she would come back but she didn't return for over 2 hours! Finally another nurse came in to do the dreaded IV. I had told the nurses, told my nurse friend Jodi, that I was a hard stick and asked if they could send in their best. I have had IV horror stories and just didn't want to add another one to the lot! So this nurse came in and joked that she would tell us how good she was after she got the IV in. And thankfully, mercifully, she got it on the FIRST TRY! One of my biggest fears of labor was over! I was so thankful to her and told her I wanted to keep her in my pocket for future use!

Soon after that the nurse came in asking when I wanted my epi and telling me Dr. Gray was going to be in soon to break my water. The last cervical check they had done was super painful and I just decided to get the epi before things got really bad. That was scary but again went very well. Dr. Gray came in because my monitors were going crazy at the front desk and wanted to make sure everything was alright. He stayed until it was done, joking and trying to make me smile. He was such a big help! Somewhere around then they had also put an internal monitor in to measure the contractions consistently and also a monitor on the babies head because she was having heart decels with the contractions. I got very overwhelmed because something was being put in me every other second it seemed, and began to cry. Labor sure is no picnic!

Dr. Gray came in, broke my bag of water and set up for an amnio infusion in case it was needed. Soon after that came the catheter. With the water broke, my body naturally went into a very consistent labor pattern. I contracted every two minutes like clock work. Although the epi helped, I was still feeling the contractions. I tried upping the dose but it just made my legs more numb which was very uncomfortable so I just tolerated the pain. During this time the nurse had rushed in a few times because the babies heart kept dropping during contractions which was really scary. I ended up on my left side the entire labor. I was afraid to move a muscle and upset the baby. Our nurse was so great and on top of things. They never had to give me pitocin which was good because they didn't want to use anything else and chance upsetting the baby further. Also during the labor my blood pressure was very low. The bottome number hung around 33 so the monitor would go off every 15 minutes as it was taken...very unnerving!

My mom showed up around 6. I was shaking through the whole labor again and she rubbed my legs and feet which really helped. The three of us just sat there and watched the monitors to make sure Alexis got through each contraction. All of a sudden somewhere in the 10:00 hour I heard a weird pop sound and some other clicks. I wasn't sure what it was so I didn't saying anything right away. I finally said to Craig that I had felt something weird. When the nurse came in she was saying she wasn't going to check me for awhile. I told her I had felt something weird, she lifted the covers and saw that I had bloody show, and decided to check me. She barely started to check, smiled really big and said, "You are a 10 and ready to go!" I had felt the baby drop into the canal! We were all shocked!!! This had happened SO fast for me! She started setting things up and I was trying not to completely panic and freak out! Before I started pushing the nurse told me I needed to get the baby out quickly because she would not tolerate much pushing the way her heart had been acting. She asked me to push, and I pushed with all my might 3 times though the next contraction. She knew the baby was coming fast, asked me to stop and went out to get Dr. Gray. He came in, got suited up and I pushed 3 more times through another contraction, determined to get her out. Then he said, "You'll have a baby with the next one" I could not believe it! And with the next one, our sweet baby GIRL came into the world!!! When just her head was out they said, "Oh she's not very happy about this" and "She has a head of hair!" Wow, hair! I managed to ask, "Is it dark?" and it was! I had been wondering if since it was a girl this time around she would be born with a head of dark hair like I was...and she was! Alexis Joy came out screaming (she was terrified at what had just occured and was quickly consoled by cuddles from mommy)! They put her right on me at 11:18 pm and it was wonderful! I held her for a long time before they cleaned her up a bit and weighed and measured her. When she came out the nurse had exclaimed, "Oh it's a peanut!" and I was very curious how much she weighed. Finding out she was only 6# 4oz. and 18 inches long was crazy! Especially since our last two were almost 8 pounders! Soon after they put her back on me and she latched on for 45 minutes on each side! It was such an amazing bonding time and one I had longed for! After awhile the baby nurse came back in, bathed her, gave her her shots, etc. And thankfully I was able to push her out so quickly because she had her first bowel movement on the way out which is a sign of stress. She wouldn't have tolerated much more! Her apgars were 9 and 9!

My labor was nine hours. NINE HOURS!! That is so amazing after my other marathon labors! We thank God for all of the things that did go right. All of the details we could see worked out. For a sweet, healthy baby. For a happy ending to the beginning of the rest of our lives!


Proud Daddy!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Alexis Joy

In the late night of August 18th, our lives were again changed forever. At 11:18 sweet baby girl, Alexis Joy, entered the world and instantly into our hearts. I have been wanting to write her birth story but that will have to come later. For now I just wanted to share the excitement we are still feeling that she is here at last! She is almost 5 days old and it feels hard to believe it's already been 5 days since we met her yet at the same time already feels like we have known her forever! She is an amazing, beautiful little girl. To say we are smitten with her isn't quite strong enough. She has such a gentle spirit. Coming into this world shook her up but she was happy to be comforted by mommy and daddy and has been ever since. She loves to feel our warmth. To hear our voices soothing her. She sleeps well and is happiest when snuggling up with one of us. It has been a challenge learning to feed together. She was born with a hoover vacuum suck but needs to learn to open wider. As a result mommy has quite the "owie" and feedings are taking most of the day. But when we are finished, is one of my favorite times. She is so content and lays passed out warmly on my chest. I could sit there forever in those moments. Smelling her. Staring at her. Just completely taking in her beauty. I am so unbelievably thankful for my sweet baby girl. I find myself getting overwhelmed that she's really here, that I really have a daughter. That my family is finally complete. That I know how quickly this time will pass and it makes my heart ache.

These days are so precious. I am trying to take in every minute even in my exhausted fog. My boys are loving on their sister every chance they get and we are all just in a wonderful period of time. I thank God for my family, He does great and mighty things!

Friday, August 14, 2009

38 Week Dr's Appointment

I have been getting a lot of questions about the Dr's appointment today so I thought I would pop on and write about it.

It was quite eventful. The ultrasound tech was great (one of the other ones we have frequently had, not so great) and was really attentive, thorough and caring. My fluid measured lower then last week and so now I am at the lowest end of normal. That brought tears as I have been so worried about that being a cause for an automatic c-section. Thankfully the baby measured well and seems to about 6 1/2 pounds or so which is right where she should be. She had a harder time measuring today because Alexis was so curled up. But there was fluid in her belly which is a sign she is still swallowing fluid. As in the past, the babies kidney's are fine, it just appears to be my placenta beginning to get old.

After that we headed over to see Dr. Gray. He was reassuring about the fluid and making sure we did everything to ensure the babies well being. He scheduled me to have a NST (Non-stress-test) for that day and I will schedule more for next week. The BIG HAPPY news was that when he checked me, I WAS DILATED!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you know the meaning of that??? =0) Seriously, I was 1 1/2 centimeters...I had to ask him again if he was serious!! In the past, it has taken me literally a day and the second time about 15 hours..of get to about 2 centimeters!! So I was, and am, amazed!! He then swept my membranes which is pulling the sac away from the wall to try and stimulate labor. If it helps, it should work within 48 hours. If you are effaced, there is a higher chance of it working. And since I am, that is also in our favor. We will see what happens.

We then went to lunch and then back again for the NST. Everything with that went well. Right now my parent's are both here and I am just very crampy and sore. I'm also very edgy, nervous, sensitive and frustrated. I just want this to be over...but then I am so scared of what has to be done for that to happen! I'm thankful for your prayers and for all the love being sent! Thank you! I can't wait to introduce our little girl to the world...hopefully sooner then later! (And let me know you came by and read the update! Nice to know who reads these things once in awhile!)

Monday, August 10, 2009

The BIG day...but not THAT one!

Today was the Big Day ...the first day of school for both Tyler and Zachary! Tyler entered into Second grade and Zachary began Kindergarten. I can not say how absolutely relieved I am to have gotten through this morning!! I have been so worried I would miss seeing them off and staying with Zachary in his class. I had visions of him being the only child without a parent with him on his first day. But thank God all went well! The boys woke up super excited about the day! Tyler was elated that his brother would be going to school with him. Zachary was elated just to be going to cute to see them so happy! We all went to drop them off together and then I stayed for Zachary's first morning. Mrs. James read a story, the kids went to play on the playground and she went through a packet of information and then the kids went around to 4 different centers to complete activities. And that was it. The day ended almost two hours early! Tomorrow he will go and start his normal routine without Mommy. I know he will be fine...and hopefully I will be too!

Before we left we saw Tyler outside for his snack time. It was fun to check in with him and see how his day was going. He was really excited, said he liked his teacher and was eager to get to the playground.

Looks like we are off to a good start with both boys!

Friday, August 07, 2009


I'm not sure what to do with myself right now so I thought I would write. I am so tired all the things I know I could be doing or should be doing just don't sound appealing. The kids are napping/ resting so I probably should be too. Only problem with that is that Tyler is in my bed! So here I sit (on a birthing ball) so tired I can hardly hold my head up. Reason for that besides being 37 weeks pregnant? I keep waking up between 2 and 3 every morning and can't go back to sleep!!! I haven't had more then 4 hours of straight sleep in I don't know how long. It is really starting to take it's toll. And I wonder how I will manage when the baby is here.

I had another Dr appointment yesterday. I saw Dr. Lin for the first time. Another ultrasound was also performed. The whole experience was a bit disapointing for me this week and put me more on edge. My fluid count a few weeks ago was 16 which was really great. Yesterday it messured at 10, not so great. From my past history I know that above 8 is still "normal range" and getting near 5 is cause for alarm. Anything below usually requires immediate attention. With Tyler and Zachary the fluid hung around 10 a lot at this point which is the cause of my alarm. I was just so bummed to hear it had dropped so much. It was in week 39 that the fluid went to almost nothing in the past, which helped found my theory of why I didn't lose all my fluid with Jacob. He was born earlier in week 38. The baby was measuring about 5 1/2 to maybe 6 pounds according to the techs measurements and 6 1/2 is average for 37 weeks. I don't take a lot of stock in those measurements as they tend to be wrong but usually they over estimate the weight so I'm hoping she is still growing fine.

As for the Dr. appointment, not much new. She checked me and I am still all closed up. No full moon help for me! When my belly was measured last week, Dr. Gray measured right on at 36 at 36 weeks. This week Dr. Lin measured me at 35 (should be 37) so she thinks the baby dropped. I have had a lot of pelvic pressure and the ultrasound tech confirmed her head is very low but I felt that way at my appointment last week as well. I'm just trying not to worry that she has stopped growing! I will be relieved to see Dr. Gray again next week and once again get the fluid checked. That just seems so far away! I am definitely hoping to not even need that Friday appointment! New ideal time would be to start labor after Zachary is out of school Monday as Dr. Gray will be at the hospital that day! If only we could plan these things ourselves! And on a side note, the Group B test came back negative...yay for that!

So a ticking time bomb I remain until who knows when! I am getting so scared of what's to come! I just want it over with so we can move out of this "waiting phase" and into the next phase of adjustment. Hopefully not too much longer.....

Tuesday, August 04, 2009


Interesting bit of trivia. I have heard that a New Moon (where the moon is not visible) and a full moon, can bring on labor when you are near your due date. I found a site that shows the moon cycles dating way back when so you can look to see if your birth fell around one of those dates. I was surprised to find that Zachary was literally born on the one day the moon was full and Jacob was born on the exact day it was a new moon!! Wow, what are the odds of that? And Tyler was induced so didn't come on his own timing.

Just a fun tid-bit! =0)

Monday, August 03, 2009

Losing Our Minds...Quote of the Week!

So the other night Craig and I were talking. Thinking how exciting that it was almost August, the big anticipated birth month, I said, "I can't believe there's only two days until September". To which Craig corrected, "You mean two days until June". Oh my gosh we are losing our minds!!! At least I had a really good laugh! =0)

Almost Full Term...Wow!

On Wednesday I will be 37 weeks pregnant and considered "full-term". At my appointment Friday, Dr. Gray did the group B swab test and I asked if he would check for progress. In my past pregnancies I never felt even a Braxton Hix contraction. I had NO progress whatsoever until actual labor had begun. But since I have had B.H., and other signs, I wanted to see if that had actually done anything. To my surprise, he said I was about 75% effaced!!! I couldn't believe it! Just to know that I won't have to do everything in one shot is wonderful! Maybe I will get to experience a labor that doesn't last over 24 hours!! As of now I am very crampy and am getting back pain off and on. It was pretty bad the other night and had me on alert. Dr. Gray said that this week would be fine for delivery...we'll see what happens! Wednesday is also a full moon. I have heard that labor and delivery gets crazy crowded during a full moon so there must be something to that gravitational pull!;0)

Something that makes me a bit more stressed about the whole labor-at-any-minute situation is that Tyler and Zachary start school Monday the 10th,(one week from today!!). Zachary will be starting his first day ever as he is going into Kindergarten. The school has it set up for a parent to spend the whole first day with their child, learn about what will happen during the year and just help transition the child into the school setting. I love that they are doing that...such a parental "hands on" school! But, my concern is missing that experience! I really want to be there. So I am hoping the baby comes enough before then so that I can see them off or waits until after. So many "ideal" times but we just don't know! Makes it hard and I am just needing to trust that God will work it out.

As of now I am crampy, and now the baby feels lower adding to the difficulty of walking (swollen feet, sciatic nerve....). The boys are super excited and keep saying they want Lexy to come out so they can hold her. And Craig is such an excited Daddy!! I love to see him so happy for this new little life! We are both such infant people and that's often rare in a male. He is excited to hold her, see what she looks like and just relish in those sweet, priceless first days of life!

And I am too!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

34 Weeks!

It's been awhile since I updated...4 weeks since my 30 week post! I'll just dive in.

I finally started my pregnancy album for this baby. Once I got going things went quickly. I was caught up but now have more pictures to print. I have been using my blog posts to add to the album which has been really nice. I wish I had been doing the blog during the other pregnancies! It has been fun using the girlie scrap stuff (finally!) and doing my first "It's a Girl!" page! So many fun things when having a different sex the 4th time around!

As for the pregnancy, I am reeeeaaaallllly done!!! My sciatic nerve which is in my bum, has been getting worse and worse over the last month or so. Shoots pain every time I move, sit on it, rotate, try to lean on it...pretty much whenever I move! This has made me walk pretty funny...definitely with a waddle! My fingers seem to be swelling more then ever. I wake up feeling like I can hardly bend them they are so stiff. insomnia is setting in more frequently. And for the first time I am feeling braxton hix contractions. They make my ears burn! ;0) I have had a few days where they wouldn't stop until I was finally down for the night...a little unnerving. I still feel like I have an eternity to wait and yet when I think that in just 3 weeks now I can be considered full-term...then I start to panic!! One of those weird things in life where you can't wait but then reality hits (and the anxiety!)! I'm going to be in a TON of pain again. Are we both going to be safe? Will we make it on time to the hospital? We are going to have a NEW BORN again! Sleepless nights. A human that needs us 100% of the time. And I could go on!

But really, I can't wait to see her. To see my daughter!!! To see what our little girl looks like! To have the boys finally meet their baby sister. To kiss and smell that small little body. To dress her! To have all of this waiting over and move forward with our lives. To taking a million adorable pictures! To feeling more like myself again and moving without groaning!

I have a Dr.'s appointment on Friday along with an ultrasound to begin checking my fluid levels. I am really looking forward to seeing Lexy again! One more appointment 2 weeks after that and then we go to weekly visits! We are getting closer to the final countdown and we couldn't be more excited!

32 Weeks. (The thing in my hair was for VBS. We helped out with crafts for the week!)

Today at 34 Weeks! (Look awful!)